Utter Misery – Inanities33

Still love; a frozen desire
In a frame of memory
That steals all the colour
From the normal joys of life.
Similar to grief; it is a travesty
Of true love that exposes
All your nerve ends to grey
And merciless self criticism.
Let still love alone, my love,
Write no more poems to a fantasy.
Go seeking a true love, one that
Moves and grows [...]

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I lied – Inanities32

I don’t want you on any terms.
Do not come for my sake alone.
Do me no duty, tell me no lies,
Politeness puts out passions eyes.
I lied, any terms at all…..
Ignore all I’ve said -
take me to bed !
Desire me, set us both free.
I need – you win,
Round in circles I spin.

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Fool – Inanities31

I do not hope anymore
Though sometimes I ask for more
In rare reckless breathless moments.
You never say yes
You never say no
To my hearts impulsive romance.
I play it cool.
I give you the benefit of the doubt
But I feel like a fool.

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Frightened Bird – Inanities30

How is it that you can reach down inside me
To pull out a heart that others deny me ?
You hold her gently like a frightened bird
Smoothing her feathers, soothing with words
Then with no warning gesture at all
Splatter her against the concrete wall,
Saying simply – “the wounded should not suffer so.”

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Caged- Inanities29

How pathetic the lover looks when tamed
Fawning for love from trainers
With timetables.
How helpless the soft moaning purr
Of padded paws, restlessly pacing
The perimeter of their open cage.

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I know- Inanities28

I know you must love me !
To save me from yourself
You have walked away
And proved your love.
Had you hated me
You would have stayed
And ruined a beautiful
Fantasy.

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Cheshire Cat- Inanities27

I cannot cross into your space
In five short minutes of talk
In the street when we meet.
I cannot evaluate myself to you
In such a short public time.
Yet you charm me out of myself
Then leave me dangling there
For all to see, a Cheshire cat grin
With a heart tacked on its sleeve
Slowly fading into nothing.

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Perhaps- Inanities26

You see only a weeping
Frightened girl underneath
All my smiles, as if laughter
Merely masks a truer self.
I weep to think about it,
I think about it and weep.
Perhaps you see clearly.

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Leaf- Inanities25

I can’t decide whether to
Make up my mind or not…
I rang you up yesterday
To say that I wasn’t there
But when I spoke to you
I came back.
I rang you up yesterday
To tell you not to come over
But when I spoke to you
I asked you to come today.
I rang you up yesterday
To say I had nothing more [...]

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Fantasy- Inanities24

Control is slipping through my fingers
Like water dripping away
And most of the time I act like me
But I’m not really there.
I’m having conversations with you
I’m dreaming of a day
When all the wonderful things I think
To say won’t slip away.
Inside my head you’re always there
Re-running memories
So if I don’t answer in real life
It’s just that this [...]

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Limpet- Inanities23

You choose not to love me
Therein lies my grief.
Wouldn’t you think by now I’d learn
If I try to get too close I burn.
Yet stubbornly I cling
Like a limpet to the hostile
Landscape of your sphinx face.

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Choice – - Inanities22

You choose not to love me
Therein lies my grief.
Wouldn’t you think by now I’d learn
If I try to get too close I burn.
Yet stubbornly I cling
Like a limpet to the hostile
Landscape of your sphinx face.

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